Thursday, March 31, 2016

Know Your Lemons


Know your lemons 

After a worrying period of time since I first felt discomfort in my left breast, my mind has been put at rest after spending much of this afternoon at the fairly new Breast  Centre at Worthing Hospital. 

 The figures I found on googling Breast Cancer are alarming enough; one chart I found showed these figures for the possibilities of developing breast Cancer at different ages:
30’s 1 in 233
40’s 1 in 69
50’s 1 in 38
60’s 1 in 27
70’s 1 in 8 

These figures look bad enough to be very scary for women in general.
However, in my own group of friends who go swimming the numbers are much more alarming. In a small group of swimmers who were members of our triathlon and masters swimming club, two of the women suffered all the fear and trauma of double mastectomies’ both in a short time frame. Two other women friends at the early morning swim session have also suffered Breast Cancer. One of these last two women I have known since she was twelve or thirteen when she had really thick dark cropped hair. Widening the circle out a bit further to women I know but are acquaintances rather than close friends there are several more women who have had to brave this monstrous experience of breast surgery, and all from the swimming world. 

So what I’m saying is that from my life experience the figures shown might be on the optimistic side. This is why when my left breast started to ache when I was out running or when I turned over onto my chest in the night, I did not leave it very long before making an appointment at my doctor’s surgery. 

The newspapers and TV seem to be having a high old time complaining about the NHS of late but although when I first rang the surgery I was told that I could have an appointment in ten days, the moment I told them what my cause of concern was, I was given an appointment for the next day, even though I had asked to see my own GP but she was off recovering from an operation herself,  I asked if I could possibly be seen by female GP and that was arranged for me. The GP who examined me said that she was fairly sure that there were no lumps but still referred me to the New Breast Care Centre in Worthing. She said that because nothing had been found that I would go on the less urgent list but would still be seen inside six weeks. However, a letter came from Worthing hospital very quickly asking me to ring to make an appointment, five days later I was seen. That was today. Less than thirty minutes after my 3.30pm time, my name was called. My husband took my book away because I had not heard (that’s another problem). It was a three stage procedure; first I was taken in for discussion about my symptoms followed by an examination, then sent back to the waiting room again to wait for a mammogram. I was glad I had taken my book. Then after another half hour I was called to go and have the mammogram. That was a thorough affair and didn’t take all that long although it is a fairly uncomfortable thing to have done.

Then back to the book until the mammogram had been seen. I was finally called back in and was, thank God and all the angels, told that there was nothing to worry about and that it was just a muscular problem. 

The trouble with any fear of breast problems it that women tend to put off having the whole thing checked out. Also there are lots of places, various website that are most helpful in telling what it is you are feeling about trying to detect. 

I found one called ‘knowyourlemons’ that I found tremendously helpful. 

Wondering is not any help. Go and ask the doctor as soon as you have your first moment of doubt.
 
The NHS service was brilliant and caring.
The book was good too, Sleep, Pale Sister by Joanne Harris

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Who am I?

 Whilst out on a training bike ride this morning after our early swim at Littlehampton Swimming Pool, we came to a gate that is a barrier between one private estate and another there is a gap at the side where there is just room to cycle carefully through, or for Dog walkers and mothers with push chairs  or prams to get by. The space had been completely blocked by  two vans and a group of workmen. It was a struggle for us to get by them. My husband pointed out politely that they might want to move the vans over slightly so that people could get by. As I came by I said it would be difficult for prams or family with kids on tricycles.
"Who do you think you are" was the response. "We're working here".

Who Am I?

‘Who do you think you are’, I have been asked sometimes
And most of those occasions in a tone indignant
From a person who on their high horse climbs
With malevolent, malicious expression mimes
After all, who indeed are they to think me malignant? 

‘I’m not really sure’, is the most truthful thing I could say
Confidence was never my forte; I put on a front at best
And though I have had many, I hate to argue and to brae
I come unprepared and fearful into a spite filled affray
What’s said is usually meant, after the ‘Sorry’s are laid to rest. 

Most popular complaint to my face is, ‘Over active imagination’
My downfall there admittedly I would have to say
Is that a bad thing? Why halt my poor brain’s merry migration
Would you have my more innocent wanderings suffer incarceration?
I, think the lint from the tumble dryer gets prettier each day.  
 
It may be my fault that my mum was a Connaught Theatre usherette 
I got her complimentary seats for Worthing Repertory Company
Dancing classes all week long, forget the maths and science threat
To keep me off the street’s my mum would go into debt
In my magic theatrical world nobody need accompany. 

My dopey, dreamy way earned me many a slap at school
Cruel teacher tries hard to beat my big brothers sense into me
Making me know for sure that I was a little fool
Spending my free time draped in satin and in tulle
It proved not to be so bad letting my young mind run free.  

Mum’s gifts were theatre, dance, poetry, love and many a thrashing
Dad gave me order and music; he played the cornet in the Sally Army 
I am today what myself and others made me with either love or bashing
Ask me today and I will say that my life has been smashing
The one lesson well learnt; that good things in life not always are free

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Bluebell Blessings

 

So many visitors walking in the woods today
And the reason is quite simply here is found
A purple carpet leads the unready eye away
Whatever direction thunderstruck you turn around 

Their breathtaking perfume rules woodland air
The finer senses all within the soul are stirred
Sight and smell and touch all drawn there
Recital in company of sweet chirping bird

Slim animal track guides devotees through
Snapping woody winter debris under foot
Admirers do come now but far too few
A mite too muddy for the townie pussyfoot 

The glory of the Bluebells shouldn’t be unknown
Just a few weeks in ultimate pleasure blessed
The depth of colour into memory banks shown
Or owned only in the romantic spirits breast 

Take these sweet moments whilst you may
How soon this sweetest sight is forgotten
A lazy life indoors and nature’s forfeits pay
As easily left behind as dreams were gotten

 

Sunday, March 27, 2016

My Easter meaning


I look forward to Easter. I enjoy it as part of my life. For all sorts of reasons, it means new beginnings in the darkest places of my airy fairy mind.  I do the Lent thing, restrictions in my diet that actually mean much more than that. To me it means that I am trying to make improvements in myself. A time to stop habits forming, stopping changes that are the start of a downward spiral in my way of life. Trying my hardest, to maintain my own standards set within childhood. I have enjoyed our Easter break, a couple of days off work but not from my training since this is not just a health issue to me but also a form of life discipline.

Spiral staircase 

In the depths of my mind there has long been
A huge never ending spiral stair case
Still fighting my way up to a healthy scene
It’s getting harder to keep my place 

It is starting to feel like an escalator
Travelling relentlessly against the tide
I’ll soon be in need of a respirator
Every floor I have stopped and sighed 

So far though I am still climbing high
And not going with the downwards flow
If I stop struggling I’ll find out why
It’s dangerous to let life’s pace go slow

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Bank Holiday Shopping

Its a mystery is it not. Most shops are open pretty much every day these days, some with 24 hour service. So why is there still massive crowd doing a huge shop up for the Easter weekend? The shops were open on Friday, open again today and the rest of the weekend. Can somebody explain it to me.
We went to pick up something we had forgotten and could not believe the panic shopping. The World and his wife and even bumped into my ex husband for I have not seen in a couple of years.
That's what the grizzle below is about.
 
Zombie

Who are those people who stand and gape
Blocking the middle of the supermarket aisle
Trolleys both ways and there’s no escape
The grimaces rule and you’ll lose that smile 

Perhaps they have forgotten to write a list
Their eyeballs now are completely glazed
They move so slowly as if in an invisible mist
What is it that grabs them and leaves them dazed? 

The supermarket syndrome seems to effect
People from all walks of life and all ages
Mesmerised as shopping they try to collect
Hours so cheap no thought of time engages 

It’s an international problem that needs treatment
It’s spreading at the speed of the plague
Do gooder’s will say it’s caused by maltreatment
And nothing to do with laziness or being vague

Friday, March 25, 2016

Working together


Today was Good Friday. We started the day with a swim at our local pool in Littlehampton. Because it was a bank holiday, Sunday opening times were in operation. With one voice, all the people who turned up to swim thirty minutes later than usual, were surprise that so many others had decided it would be a good way to start the Easter weekend. It was really crowded.
 
My friend Bekka and I sought our usual swim spot that is just outside the Fast Lane; that is usually in place to keep the animals (My husband and all the guys he coaches) away from real people. Bekka and I have perfected a technique of swimming in a very small amount of space and not disturbing anybody else. We swim one directly behind the other in a shoulders width of water space. This means that the only time either of us moves out of the eighteen inches of space is to allow the other to pass. Over the years we have perfected this method. We can pass breast to breast in the same small space and not touch.

Wouldn’t it be nice if the rest of the world tried this hard, to work together and not disturb the rest of our environment or deliberately try to force our will on the rest of the world without trying to negotiate a peaceful path.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Sad World

In the light of the senseless dreadful slaughter in Belgium, I feel as I suppose many people must, that we wish we could help in some way. We feel helpless and find it difficult to get on with our jobs, and day to day lives. However, I personally think that the best thing we can do is try to get our thoughts up again beyond the things that we cannot change and get on with life as best we can. Sitting glued to the news on TV will not help those who have suddenly lost family loved ones or friends or business acquaintances, sitting in a stupor won't help all those people who are horrendously injured. We are all sad, and angry and helpless.

Writing this blog feels to me, to be improper in some way, too frivolous, too unimportant, as if I don't care enough for the troubles of others. I don't think so really, I believe it is right to make ourselves direct our thoughts and efforts into the ordinary and mundane jobs of our everyday life. Sad and angry as we all are at all these savage outrages on our peaceful world. Cruel as it sounds, life must go on.

For athletes, its hard to concentrate on getting on with the training schedule to be ready for the events we are planning for. This morning I got up when the alarm went off at 5.22 am, got myself ready and went for my usual Wednesday morning swim. After that, I got my bike out and went for a ride. I forgot my gloves and my fingers froze. The rest of the morning, once seated at my desk, I sent emails and wrote invoices and all the boring old things that have to be done in our little antiques/transport business.

Monday, March 21, 2016

The passing of pop stars

Over the past few months there has been one announcement after another about the deaths of great music stars. Bowie probably drew the greatest amount of tributes but it got to the point where we all started saying something about sex, drugs and rock and roll finally catching up with the hell raisers.
One after another the mighty have fallen and the deaths have reached scary proportions. In fact from what we have read about many of them it was something of a miracle that some of them lasted in their seventies.

This morning I read the news that Julian Jenkinson, one of my sports greatest hero's had died suddenly. He appears to have suffered a heart attack whilst he was out on a training ride. This was a dreadful shock to many of us. He had a remarkable career in Triathlon. He was former British Iron Distance record holder, maintaining that record for 13 years from 1996-2008.

To me he was certainly somebody to be proud of; He was an elite athlete at a number of the international events that I competed in. He was very down to earth and would stop to chat to anybody and give them advice if they needed it.

When I speak of my own success, I always add that I am competing on the age group team, as if my medals were not so important. Years ago my husband Steve and I shared a table with Julian at a sports dinner and awards evening. The conversation turned to cycle races that we had all taken part in and how we had got on in them. Julian mentioned that he had seen in Cycling Weekly that I had won the women's race in a 100 mile time trial. I was so taken aback that he had remembered that, and immediately tried to make less of it by explaining that the only reason I was shown on the result sheet as the women's winner was that all the other women had dropped out at some point because they were not happy with their times, so actually saving themselves for another day. The great and successful Julian Jenkinson, very seriously told me off for that and said that it was a fair and square win and I need not feel that it was anything but that.

He was same to everybody, never above himself and funny into the bargain. Once we were all on the GB team at the World Long Distance Championships in Nice and I recall that he made a big point of not liking the team kit that year. When challenged he turned the question back and asked why the kit had big splashes of silver on it and pressed the point by asking where was the silver on the Union Jack Flag. I seem to recall there was humorous photo call along those lines.

A giant in the sport of triathlon, he will be very sadly missed, certainly by me, but well remembered.


Sunday, March 20, 2016

Swimathon


This afternoon we went to Billingshurst Sports Centre for our annual long pool swim challenge. There is the choice of distance and swimmers can elect to take on 2500 metres or 5000 metres or do either as a relay. We have always done the 5000 metre 200 length event simply because it is nation wide and is a splendid way to get in a long training event without interruption and have it recorded.

When we arrived there was no sign of a registration table and had to wait 30 minutes until they got that set up. In the end there was a very casual start that was 15 minutes late. The staff were all very nice but had not had any training as to how they should run this well known event.

I really enjoyed the long swim in a lane with only one other lady who was swimming just fractionally faster than me but alternating from front crawl to breast stroke and then stopping to rest every now and then. Eventually she settled down to taking her rest and waiting for me to get inside the reds before pushing off again which saved her having to overtake once in a while.
The down side was that organisation was at zilch level. The start; instead of a strict timed start with ten second intervals which is the norm, was one guy coming along and shouting "Lets do the Swimathon"????!!??!!?? And then walking away.
The unpaid lap counter's didn't really. Count that is. They chatted and moved about to the loud music.

In Steve and Kevin's lane They counted for themselves very carefully but when Kevin stopped; He was told there was 400 metres to go! Not happy.  He had brought a relative with a stop watch and upon using that as evidence had his finish time changed. When I had counted to 184 lengths, Steve came over and shouted that the counter girl had me at 170. Times will not be pleasing. Still I enjoyed it though. But now I have a serious case of chlorine poisoning. Can't stop sneezing.

Last year, I won my age group nationally. My finish time this year, that Steve took from his watch, that he did not stop when he finished, ended up at six minutes slower than last year. I am at a stage right now that I am not up for another dispute and will quietly settle for the time given. The reason for this is that I don't much care, its just a good excuse to get a nice long swim done. I refused the event swim hat and really have no space for yet another event medal, particularly an event that is best forgotten.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

Easy day

Today has been a pretty easy pace apart from battling the traffic to collect a friend from Heathrow. Just so we all know that I am not the only loopy person in my circle of friends, The woman that we were welcoming home is a 62 year old doctor who runs and swims with us regularly. She has been on a bike holiday in Cuba. On her own. Then for a one week intensive language course in Havana.

On the other hand my plans for tomorrow seem fairly ordinary. A lazy morning and then the 5000 metre Swimathon. 200 lengths of a 25 metre pool. I have done this every year since the event began. Well how often do you get the chance to do a swim of that length without interruptions?

A watery poem to set the scene.


Mermaid 

I
Am
Alone
Swimming
In open water
Sea water
Salt water
It is salty
Waves
Head on
Rise
And
Then fall
Bumpy waves
Rise and fall
Rise again
And fall
Head on
I am small
In the water
Not normally so
But in the sea
I am so small
There’s a surge
The water lifts me up
And then lowers me again
I feel the power of the water
The strength of the current
I try to sight ahead
Nobody is there
They were
But not now
I look around again
Treading water
My hands
Washing
A floor
That’s
Not
There
Really
My hands
Slip moving
Like that repeatedly
Without thinking
Subconsciously
Balancing me
It’s deep
I
Can’t
See through
This dark water
Another surge lifts me
I can see ahead at that point
See where I want to go
The right direction
The wave rises
Before me
Again
Like a cat
Playing
With a mouse
It lifts me up again
Holds a moment now
Then pushes me forward
Suddenly the wave
Drops me
Slaps me
Down
On my face
Sssslllllaaaapp
Ouch I think
That hurt
She swims beneath me
Looks up at me sadly
Swims around me
Then comes back
She asks politely
If I can help
I’m surprised
But not frightened
How can I help?
Tears well up
Big eyes
My hair she says
My hair is so tangled
I ask if she can help me
We swirl as one on a big swell
We can help each other
She is smiling at me
Swirling smiling
You comb my hair
And I will show you
The way you want
I don’t have a comb
I tell her softly
A comb?
You have fingers
She says as if
I am stupid
You must
Swim above me
I will swim slowly
Comb my hair
And I will
Show you
The way
We can
Help
Each
Other
You must
Reach out
To the top
Of my head
Be gentle or you
Might hurt if you tug
She turned a circle
And came back
Beneath me
Looked up
Once more
Swimming
Slowly
On
Her
Wavy
Hair was
Very long
One soft stroke
Through her hair
From top to bottom
Took my hand down
A far as my hip bones
The next arm the same
Long smooth strokes
Tangles fell away
Slipping to the
Ocean bed
MMMM
MMM
She
Said
Follow
Me
Please
Don’t worry
We will get to
Where you want to be
By the time my hair
Is smooth again
Smooth
Again
As I
Combed
Her long
Curled
Locks
The
Sea
Calmed
And the
Waves
Were
Smaller
Smoother
The water
More clear
I could see
The shore
Ahead
Thank
You
She
Said
But it
Was
I
Who
Was
More
Thankful
She turned
And smiled
Radiantly
And was
Gone
 

 

Friday, March 18, 2016

Me, the blue arse fly and other pests


Me and the Blue Arse Fly 

One of Gods creatures that I find most horrid
Is the common Bluebottle, so annoyingly paced
Common, because it is so commonly chased
With a passion to kill it, most torrid. 

I see a lot of myself in the life of the Blow Fly
Rushing at breakneck speed everywhere
Hither and thither and once more back there
And mostly not at all sure quite why 

Folk seem to find us both such a pain
With the speed, the noise and the fluster
Back and forth, in and out, our energy muster
Getting nowhere fast as if we’re insane 

Too much to do and no time to think straight
We buzz incessantly, each taking the lead
Causing in turn what neither of us need
An outside force swatting us down with hate 

We are both far too fat, that’s another thing
And we move so fast we loose focus
You see where I’m heading with this hocus-pocus
To a meaning in life we all need to cling 

The pair of us hoping the end won’t come yet
As we press on regardless of theme
Doing our best with hope and dream
Pray we do nought that we live to regret

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Think thin... well thinner....well not so fat anyway


Thin is in 

Thin is in
So it seems
When you look
At a magazine
Thin as a pin
Seems to me
I cannot win
 
Bones so near
To the skin
Shoulders
Sticking out
Like coat hangers
 
Don’t know
How to begin
I feel guilty
Of a sin
 
Gluttony
Is akin
To the eating plan
Too much grin
And eat cake
 
In a spin
Put it back
In the tin
Forget
The rolling pin
 
Take the mirror image
On the chin
Thin is in
I cannot win

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Silent Feeders


If there is anybody left who is not fed up with my banging on about the letter TELLING me, that I need a Doctor note to sign of on my events this year because I am over 75, then please don’t stop reading because I am planning shortly to give the moaning a rest and be more general about being trodden on. 

Yes, of course I COULD get a doctor to do that for me without too much trouble. The question is, do we stand by our principles or do we cave in when a very large group try to make you do something that is really not right. Not legal either I believe, to use discrimination of any kind against any group, minority or not. Some people have said that it’s such a little thing, why not just do it? Well because that would make it ok, and its not. 

To refuse to renew my membership , due at the end of May, would be damaging to me. I would not be able to qualify to gain a place on the GBR team for National, European, and World Championships. I would not have insurance cover for my triathlon activities (not that I have ever made a claim in 26 years).
 
That is the price I would pay for giving in to something I think is wrong. Maybe I am just sulking, which has also been said. 

Moths
Silent but deadly little things wouldn’t you say
They look harmless enough fluttering about at play
Tiny little flecks of beige wings like paper
When you clap at them they break up like vapour
Uninvited guests that move in when your back is turned
This is a lesson that only through time is learned
They hide in your closets and not by your leave
No rent is paid and they eat up half a sleeve
Of that nice woollen coat you kept so long for best
Might as well come back now and chew through the rest
Moths are the reincarnation of bad friends we’ve had so long
Don’t realise the damage until long after they are gone

Monday, March 14, 2016

Summat' nasty in the woodshed

Thanks to everybody for the support over the Doctor's note letter that I received from my governing body. I'm told that it is being looked into at the moment. I am reliably informed (don't you just love those media type quotes) that this is not the case in the USAT system. Hopefully there will be a favourable outcome. Some people have asked why I don't just get the letter signed and stop making such a fuss. Well that would be easier, I can see that but wrong is still wrong and I can't bring myself to do that.

I'm going out now to see a nice movie with my husband to relax for a while and forget for a couple of hours out this rather silly discrimination.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

One Fine Day


Today was the first day this year that was fine enough to eat our dinner in the garden, this year, or dare I say, this summer. It was also the first time this year that I have hung my washing out to dry on the line. Earlier, we did our usual two hour Sunday morning bike turbo training session with friends and then after packing our bikes and turbo trainers back into our van, we bought a few bits in the shop and strolled across the road there and took a coffee in an Arundel café before going home. We both did a few little jobs that we had to get out of the way and were expecting the sky to cloud over as it had been doing in the afternoons lately. So, when it brightened up even more, we cleaned up the garden furniture and made ready to make the big move to an outdoor summer garden meal. It’s true that we both wore fairly warm clothes but it was a beautiful day and we meant to make the most of it. After a super relaxed meal we found that the weather was still excellent so we made another move toward restoring our summer habits. We got our best bikes out and our training bikes out of the garden shed and Steve gave them both a clean up, pumped the tyres up, and charged up my bikes electric gears. Now that we are all ready for summer training, it will probably rain tomorrow. This is England. We expect nothing, take nothing for granted. But, we are ready for the next fine day. It doesn’t take much to please us. 

Friday, March 11, 2016

Timber!

Fallen Tree 
A full grown tree
Downed by the storms of late
Lays like an unconscious giant
Not so much uprooted
As is more common
When trees are felled by a tempest,
But viscously torn apart
As if by massive teeth,
Ripped asunder
Toward the base.
What force,
Completely smashed
This once lovely tree.
Clean exposed core wood
The colour of desert sand
Faces out and upward
Among huge splinters
That themselves give evidence
To the monstrous destruction.
Close to the sodden ground,
The torso, the corpse,
The recently sound trunk,
Has itself committed
An almost equal crime;
As it fell,
The sheer weight of the big tree
Brought about life’s finale
For two younger, weaker trees
That now involuntarily support it,
Slightly off the ground
Like the worlds strongest man
Lifting the Olympic medal winning weight.
Ivy still clings to the great mass
Stretched like a bow string over the
Decimated woodland giant
That has stood handsomely there
In the middle of a tight,
Closely tree-ed wood
Showing off the beauty of its
Abundant foliage for decades,
Now it lies, mangled, mutilated,
Humbled and beaten
Beyond any hope of repair,
Still sucking the last drops of sap
From the minute strands
Still attached with weakening sinew’s
To the stricken base,
And by that to the life giving roots
Still firmly implanted in the ground.
No miracle surgery can save
The life of the broken tree.
The time it has left….
Is only in wait for the saw and axe.

Disappointed of Littlehampton


British Triathlon - letters
Recently I was sent two letters from British Triathlon dated 2nd March. I was so shocked and taken aback by them that I have not yet replied, thinking I needed to calm down before replying.  The general gist of the letters is that because I have now passed 75 years of age, that my membership would not be renewed unless I completed a list of events that I indeed to compete in this summer and get the list signed with a statement from a GP saying that I was fit enough to do them.
 
I find this request to be totally out of order, age-ist and definitely non PC. Add to that that it showed that British Triathlon had sold me down the river, and after I had brought home 8 World Championship gold medals and at least ten other podium place medals. 

This may sound boastful but I would have thought they would be proud of me for my achievements on the GB team over the years. Instead, they have hung me out to dry. 

One thing I am sure I do not have to explain is that there are very few UK women in my age group 75-79. As far as I know there is only one other working towards World Championships. Therefore I realise that I would be silly to think that I could stop this action on my own. It is pretty much bullying don’t you think?  Like stepping on one snail that is spoiling the look of the garden path.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Another dream


Floating softly, light as air in tepid water so dark
There is something draping over me gently round in a celestial arc
Clinging, magnetised toward my core once having found its mark.
What it is? 

A length of flimsy cloth or the finest silken sheet
Sliding like a live creature around my slowly flailing arms and feet
Caressing my still body with near imperceptible ripples fleet.
What is this? 

Wrapping itself as if with a slight but purposeful chill
Like a huge slithering rope of sea kelp almost still
My torso covered in the drape of a goddess on a Greek hill.
Again, what it is? 

I am unafraid but aware of the dark, wet, dangerous place
Bobbing to the surface now and then a quick breath to chase
A calm ethereal feeling, no palpable movement on my face
What’s happening? 

The wetness moves, has no strength, just to hold
My wrapping takes no direction, just needs to me enfold
Barest of light, yet transparent, darkening, luminous gold.
Don’t I resist? 

 A strange living material shifts in a gossamer flirtation
Tenuous tendrils of satin like a lover’s touch of brief duration
All resistance faded away from a fearsome temptation.
Is there a question? 

Low lit shimmering of a watery dark creature appear
Imperceptible, disembodied spirit faintly fear
Panic is not considered just one curious yielding tear.
Why, what, where, when and how?

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Unwelcome letter


Unwelcome Letter 

A couple of days ago a letter arrived from my sports governing body, British Triathlon. The letter firstly mentions that a change has been made to the personal Accident Insurance Cover and advises that the letter attached (a second letter attached to the first letter) explains the changes. It then goes on to point out that my membership is due to expire on May 31st 2016. 

What it all boils down to is, that members who are over 75 years of age, are asked to obtain GP guidance and a signed dated letter before taking part in each event. So, no doctors note, no membership then? 

After reading the letter several times through I was a bit annoyed. Would you not think that winning your age group in the World Championship for two years running, said for itself that you are fit? Not to mention six other World Championships at various distances from Standard to Iron distance and over thirty National Championship titles. 

It seems to me the athletes at greater risk of accident and therefore more liable to make a claim, are the members who persist in bike training outside in the dark, and on many occasions icy conditions, weaving in and out of the traffic and jumping traffic lights, giving cyclists a bad name. Whilst my coach/husband and I, and a group of friends, meet safely indoors and do hard turbo training sessions during the dark months of winter. 

Don’t get me wrong, I do see the bit about me now being my being 76 (and a half) years old. My own view is that the training and events I do; contribute to my good health and fitness and do not make me a greater risk. 

Of course in the end I will have to do as they ask. It’s no good getting shirty. BUT, I do resent a young, neatly dressed little jobs-worth, who never does any exercise what so ever, sitting in a warm office in his cheap high street suit, saying I am a health risk and an accident waiting to happen.

Monday, March 7, 2016

In Dreams

Steve and I are Lent-ing. We have put sweets, chocolate and dessert on the 'No-No' list until Easter. We both seem to be doing ok with it so far, but how you really feel pops up in silly dreams like the one Steve had this last week when he had a dream that he was running to the sweet shop and wanted some wine gums, that are his favourite and the yummy snack that he would take to the cinema, where we have another rule that you cannot start eating your sweets or chocolate until all the adverts and the trailers have finished. Once the film starts you can then munch freely. Anyway back to his dream; when he got to the sweet shop they did not have any wine gums, they had sold out. He was very disappointed and bought a kit-kat instead having convinced himself that they were allowed because they are a biscuit and therefore not on the forbidden list. It reminder me of this big quite worrying dream of mine that I had a while back, it just shows how little worries can be magnified into something quite fantastically troublesome.

 
Time Trial
We’re going to do a 100 mile bike time trial.
The start was not that far away
Clapham Village Hall
A popular start point
Steve left home early in the car
He forgot to take me
I really wanted to do it
Since I needed to qualify
For the World Championships in September
The event is also
A qualifier
For European Championships in 2014
2013 is my seventy forth year.
So I set off
Ride the extra 5 miles
I get to the start.
When I get arrive
They have changed the start
To another point
Dial Post
16 miles further on
I eventually get to the start
A couple of hours late
There are not many
(Well none actually)
Lady vet riders
Of my age
They let me start anyway
As I get pushed off by the start marshal
I realise what I am wearing
A very nice and warm
But totally impractical for the occasion,
Mohair and wool mix winter coat
Auntie gave me it before she died.
It is a full length camel coloured coat
It has a high Peter Pan collar.
Whilst holding the flaps of the coat
To keep them from catching in the spokes
I notice that I have,
To make matters worse
I have put on a pair on socks
That my daughter’s cocker spaniel Louis
Had eaten a few days earlier.
They are in shreds
And offer me no protection
My shoes start to give me blisters
My husband Steve,
Who is normally
My pre-event preparation slave,
Has not even filled my drinks bottle.
My usual bag of Marks and Spencer's fruit jellies
Are not on my bike
And neither,
Are my normal salt supply,
In the form of saltine crackers.
I carry on biking
But the wind gets in my eyes
I have forgotten
My sun glasses
I look for a marshal
To give my cumbersome coat to
I don't want to just leave it on the road side
Because it is a top quality coat
It will last me forever
Because I only wear it for best.
I am now hours over the cut off time
But still have to get back to the finish
Another fifty miles away
It is then that I start to become
Distantly conscious
From my dream
But do not actually wake.
I know at this point
That the reason
My foot and arm ache
SO much is because
I had a fall running six weeks ago
And have had problems
That have needed two trips
To the hospital to put right.
The second was only yesterday
I am still a shaky from that
But on the other hand
I have more movement
I am starting to think
That I will get better
And be able to get back to training
As normal
This is confusing in my dream state
Because I am struggling
Through a hundred mile time trial
I think that I should stop really,
It's too early after my treatment,
They said that I should take it easy
For at least six weeks more
Yet here I am on a long bike ride
I hope that Steve will come and pick me up
But he doesn't.
I keep pushing on,
Confused now
Why I am fighting the odds
When I should be having an easy day
I am coming out of my dream slowly
I know that I do want to get back in shape
But do not understand
Why my foot and arm ache so much on this ride
The alarm goes off at 5.30 am
Steve is going to a turbo session
With friends
But I am not going because
I have just had a final (I hope)
Examination at the hospital
In my bleary state I am not sure
That I have not been riding my bike
All night
In Auntie Paul's coat.
It feels like I have.
In the cold light of day
I day not need this dream analysed
I know that at approaching 74
I am fighting against the odds
But I still think that is a worthwhile battle
In case anybody out there thinks otherwise.